This week has been . . challenging! I got into it pretty deep with one of my family members and though it doesn't usually last too long, I don't know when this is going to be fixed. I made a comment on my Facebook that "I was embarrassed by decisions made by family" and I'm sure most of you have felt that way at some point in time too but I didn't go into specifics, just said that. Let me start out by saying that I am NOT perfect and won't pretend to be, but this person continues to hurt over and over and over again. I know it is wrong to hold grudges and to NOT forgive but when is it ok to state how you feel without being bashed against the wall? This person knows that they have made some horrible decisions in life and some of them can never be fixed but the lies, pity and drama seems like it's never going to end and people VERY close to me continue to get hurt and I am sick of it! It seems like I am always the one to say how I feel, to ask questions and to try to protect as best I can but right now, I feel like washing my hands of all this for awhile and focusing on my family, my health, my goals!! I know it is easier said than done, especially when it comes to family but this time, I don't think I can fix this one!
I am not losing sleep and not stressed about the situation because I know deep in my heart that I didn't do anything to start these problems nor did I involve myself with any unnecessary drama, just stated the facts and some people didn't like them!
Life isn't always easy but I'm pressing on and letting God do his work!