Tuesday, September 28, 2010

It's raining, it's pouring!

My heart has been feeling heavy lately, a lot going on in life so today I took some much needed time to reconnect my brain.  This past year has been     C R A Z Y!

Husband left for Iraq Numb

Gave birth to our daughter She has arrived!

Homecoming from Iraq He's Home!

Isabell had surgery Removal of Pulmonary Sequestration

and so much more has happened including multiple extended family issues, depression, anxiety and now he is gone again but I got this!  It is hard mostly at night time because I got used to him snoring next to me and with Isabell . . . she is scared to death of males, even Papa for a quick moment, but I figure that is only because she hears that male voice and thinks it's Daddy but when she sees that it's not, you would think I was cutting off her arm or something.  She picks up anything that looks like a phone and holds it up to her ear and says "Da Da"  This is the longest period of time that he has gone without seeing Isabell due to no internet where he is so he is struggling with this trip, but we are trying to figure something out so we can all see each other SOON!

I didn't write this post for everyone to have a pity party for me, I wrote it to empty my recycle bin (part of my brain)  When we got home from our busy weekend, I laid in bed and smelled his Old Spice and lost it completely for a few moments but then snapped out of it:

* we have a VERY healthy daughter

* we are financially comfortable enough for only 1 of us to work

* my husband and I have a love for each other that is just indescribable

* we may want to slap family members at time, but they are great!

I can't and won't get down in the dumps, how can I?  God has guided us through so many trying times but still continues to teach, protect, love, provide and heal our family.  I am leaning on him for proper guidance in my life because Isabell depends on me, she depends on us to always be there . . . . ALWAYS! 

Please be patient with me, I may not be perfect but it is what it is!


Wendy said...

You will be in my prayers Kim! You have a lot going on and have every right to have moments that you break down. It's ok, we all do it. If you ever need to talk (sometimes it is nice to have a neutral person, non family), just let me know. You are a strong woman, wonderful wife and great Mom. You rock girl!!

Love ya,


Travis,Stephanie, Olivia & Alex said...

yes you do have alot to be thankful for, rejoice in that :)
wahooooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TrinaMae said...

Hang in there dude. It ain't easy, but you are strong and you can do this!