Wednesday, January 27, 2010

CT Scan

Monday morning, Stephanie and I packed up Isabell and headed to Children's Hospital for her CT Scan to find out if her mass still existed on her lung.  I have been having some very mixed emotions about her scan because I just didn't know what the results were going to be.  Christopher and I both agree that we have been so blessed with our little miracle and God could have taken her from us when we first found out about her mass (pulmonary sequestration) but the scan would tell us if she would be having surgery.

Before we left, she was wide awake and ready to go for a ride!

Getting checked out before the scan

Telling her nurse to be nice and try to only poke her once for the iv

Being such a good girl!

Tasting her IV, at least she wasn't trying to pull it out!

She was knocked out for just a short time.  This little miracle is hard headed like her Daddy because they had to give her meds that should have been used on a 5 year old, she wanted to be awake to sing to everyone and didn't want to sleep!

ET Toes

Her head was heavy and her body was limp.  She was having some awesome dreams!

They told us she should sleep hard for about 45 minutes to an hour but moments later, she woke up singing a song and telling us all about her dreams.  Wish I had the video camera!  Stephanie and I almost wet our pants listening to her!


The plan for the day was to have her CT Scan then go upstairs and meet with her surgeon to get the results but he was called away for an emergency so we went home.  I wasn't happy about having to leave with no answers but Stephanie kept my mind off things and then I got the call . . .

The mass is still very visible adjacent to her left lung and measures 1.5 x 2 inches.  It is NOT effecting her lung capacity or pushing on her heart or diaphragm, it is just there.  We were going to schedule surgery as soon as Christopher gets home but we are so very thankful that we don't even go back to Children's for about a month and a half when she's 6 months old.  My heart stopped when her doctor explained what he was going to do to remove it but she is our little fighter and will get over this hurdle in time.

This has been hard for me because I have been feeling so much guilt even though they have told me a million times that it wasn't anything that I did that caused the mass.  I stopped smoking long before we got pregnant and stayed out of harms way and did what was right throughout my entire pregnancy.  God is in control and will NEVER give us more than we can handle!  Our situation could be so much worse but it's still hard on Mommy. 

Less than 5 minutes after I hung up the phone with the surgeon, Christopher called and I could hear his heart stop when I told him the results.  He wants to be home so bad and will be here before we know it.  I can't even imagine what he is feeling and my heart hurts for him.  We don't have an exact date on his return but it's getting closer and closer and we can't wait!  You will have to excuse my emotions for awhile because I am a little lot on edge.


Wendy said...

Will be praying for you and your family.

Alissa said...

I'll be saying lots of prayers for you, Christopher and Miss Isabell.

Charity said...

Praying for all 3 of you, Kim! Praying God's peace, strength and wisdom for you and Chris as you face the road ahead, whatever it holds. Love and hugs!!!

Karen said...

I will continue to pray for you all. I can't wait for Chris to get home to his family, I know it has been hard on all of you. You are doing a great job little momma, keep the faith.

Hugs & kisses
Love Aunt Karen

j said...

It's a privilege to pray for you and your family. Stay strong...He knows your every need.